I knew that she was cheating on me
and I stuck with her
like an idiot
and I fit my feet in my shoes

Cody is in his midtwenties now
and I don’t see him too much

I don’t even put the twelve pack in the fridge
it is next to the garbage can
that I spit phlegm into

I feel like I am getting more sick just sitting in this room
I am a mess that is used to being a mess
after years of attempted cleaning
I lay on the laundry and bury